In the last week I have been in Indiana, San Diego and Los Angeles.
The three of us went for a visit to Indiana. The trip was such a gift. Seeing my husband hug his grandpa after not seeing him for years made my eyes water. The entire trip was great. We visited my husband’s grandparents who live in a rural part of Indiana. There were no sirens, no neighbors, and the internet was down. We spent a couple of days with my husband’s grandparents and many of his aunts, uncles, and cousins. The trip was so peaceful and full of love. There was grandma’s cooking, lots of hugs from everyone, and the beautiful scenery. This trip was exactly what I needed. It was nice to get away from everything that I know and worry about and just enjoy the simple things in life that many people (including myself) overlook.
It was sad to leave Indiana but I know we will visit again soon. It was also a good thing that we left when we did because less than 24 hours after we got home there were major fires in our area. We got home from Indiana late Saturday night, late Sunday night we started packing and by 1:30am Monday morning we were evacuating to Los Angeles.
As we were packing up our things in San Diego in preparation for the fire I was more annoyed than scared. I was tired and overwhelmed; I could not bring myself to think of all of the things I needed to pack. I think I may have been in denial at the time. I knew that the fire was extremely close so I wanted to leave our place but I really did not think that our things would actually burn. So we packed up our care with clothes, pictures, important paperwork and other junk. We arrived in Los Angeles around 3:30am. It felt good to be back at my parent’s house. I slept for a few hours but woke up early. I talked with my parents for a bit before they went to work. For some reason I was not too upset. I started to think about al l of the things that I should have brought but didn’t. I began to feel bad because I did not bring enough of Tori’s things. If our place burned I would hate for her to have to deal with large hurdle in life. I left her Halloween costume and most of her clothes. I knew that all of her things could be replaced but I don’t want her to have to deal with that kind of stuff. My mom reassured me that everything would be okay and as long as we got out safely everything else could be replaced.
The more I thought about that the more I became at ease. My husband has a brain tumor. In a heartbeat I would trade anything I own for his health back. His tumor has taught me that love, family, and happiness are priceless. Everything else is just the extras in life. Once I reminded myself of this I stopped listening non-stop to the news. Watching the news was not going to stop our place from burning. Watching the news is just dwelling on negativity. I made the most of my time here in Los Angeles. I spent time with my family and tried something new…sewing. I have been wanting a retro half apron. I was really happy when I found on in Indiana. But with my free time in Los Angeles and my mom’s new sewing machine I put my time to good use. I sewed three aprons. If it was not for the fire I am not sure I would have ended up taking the time to make these aprons. So good came out of bad. Not that the aprons are worth the fire but rather than sit in my parents home and cry about the fires, I got productive.
In closing, each day rather than rushing through I am now learning from the challenges that I face. I won’t cry over a hacked website or a burned couch. Nothing is more important than having my family and friends healthy. Everything else in life can be bought or fixed. I am going to continue to do my best to stay grounded and remind myself not to stress about the things that can be bought or fixed and to appreciate the time I have with my loved ones.