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Today Travis woke up feeling better.  That makes me feel better.  I hate it when he does not feel well and there is nothing that I can do to make him feel better.  I think that yesterday his day of rest helped him out a lot.  Today he also got his first haircut since before surgery.  The haircut made him feel better.  He looks handsome. 

He did mention something this morning that I had not noticed.  His forehead on the left side is paralyzed and he cannot raise his eyebrow on the left side.  I really hope that it is something that will improve overtime.  I really do not care about it but I know it is something that makes him feel uncomfortable.  I told him that he should not worry about it yet and that over the next few months it may improve.  I hate to see disappointment in his face.  Again it just really hurts me that I can’t make things all better for him.  I also told him that if this is permanent then in the future once he is stable he can see a plastic surgeon and get it fixed.  I just want him to be happy and confident.

I am planning on getting a job again.  I hope that I can get hired back with the same company that I used to work for.  There are a few reasons for this.  One is that I need to get out of the house and feel productive.  I know that I am doing a lot of the family but I don’t feel like I am contributing enough.  Another reason I want to get a job is for the medical benefits.  Even though Travis has benefits I don’t think it would hurt to be covered dually.  This way it may give Travis more options if he needs them.  We will see.  We still have a lot ahead of us and I am not sure I can juggle Travis’s treatment, our family, and a job.