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Well have had a few days that have been good.  The recovery is going well.  Lots of meals out and lots of tv. 

Today has not been such a good day.  I try to stay strong but sometimes the stress of this gets me down.  I get so frustrated that everything was robbed from me.  I am tired of living my life “day by day” I want a normal life.  I miss working and going to school.  I miss normalcy.  It is not his fault and I think what I am feeling is to be expected.  It takes so much out of us to act like everything is fine, to be optimistic.  But I am drained, I hate that this happened to him and to us.  Everything was perfect.  Then he was diagnosed and so much was taken from us.  I hate the saying that life is not fair.  I know that some people go through way worse but that does not make me feel any better at times like this.  The way that I feel right now really sucks.  I want this to be over already. I wish I could run away from this all but there is no where to run.  And running won’t solve anything.  I don’t have much more to say right now.  I just hope that the rest of my day gets better.

So the day got much better.  Some friends came over to visit and we had a BBQ.  Good friends mean so much at difficult times like these.  When they came over we ate and drank and all of the sadness I had earlier was pushed to the back of my mind.  I really enjoyed myself.